A Lot Of I

 I have been mad in the past,

I was aghast at the odd fast,

I used to sadly starve myself

With deteriorating bad health;

I used to have scary delusions

With having lots of confusions,

I was so paranoid of everyone

That I thought of buying a gun,

But I did not as I am so humane

But thinking lame being insane.

I have been in hospital many a time,

I stayed there until I was feeling fine,

I was a nuisance with having bipolar - 

Up and down like a fast roller-coaster.

I was in a fighting mode, a bad sign

That I wasn't being Christianly kind.